Everything is changing. Internally i mean. Some things are new, some i had dismiss and went back at it again.
I no longer identify myself as gaulish polytheist. I don’t like labels anyhow. Maybe religion is not for me as i have thought for a long time but it’s ok, i appreciate my attempts at it. It is too limiting, apparently. Or i’m just too lazy or get easily overwhelmed? Sometimes i even wonder if all of this is helping me or not, because yes, stopping reading so many religious blogs made me feel better. So i don’t know. BUT never say never right?
So for now i’m reading things, like neoplatonism, hermeticism, and looking for a more natural and scientific side of paganism. It’s interesting and it all started with the book “Conversations with god” by Neale Donald Walsch that it may seem new age at first, but it was actually a refreshing reading.
To be honest, it didn’t really started with this book, i was thrifting away before encountering the book in the site Patheos recommend reading. This time i was way more careful though. Or should i say respectful? I wrote a letter to the gods and spirits explaining my situation and how i liked to explore new things now and wished them farewell accompanied by some offerings; afterwards i found that book and it was the cataclyst for my new explorations.
So it’s been like two months since i made any ritual (aside a esporadic meditation that i should do more because anxious mind), but at least i managed to celebrate one year round of gaulish festivals like i promised myself before i decided to stop.
I have no idea where this is going. You see, i’m still exploring and searching, so who knows? I may never fit into a religion or i may, or maybe i find some guidance in the neoplatonic philosophy i admire, or in a more natural path…
There’s this book i purchased recently and haven’t read yet that is called “Spirituality without structure” by Nimue Brown that is exactly appropriate for what i’m going through. It says:
This is a book for people who have given up on formal religious systems, or want to, and are wondering where that leaves them.
So yeah. This is what i’m been up to.